a new beginning

A new beginning. like a new seed. That is what I am looking into now. The End doesnt always seems to be bad.

Nobody wants a good thing to end. Nobody wants a bad ending. Nobody dreams of a divorce. But things happens, and not everyone is lucky enough to live happily ever after.

I am those unlucky ones. whose fairy tale does not comes true. I have learn enough, about people, about family, and most of all, about myself. Help me start fresh, help me start new.


i have been gone.. from blogging.. for quite some time.. always the same thing..too busy, no idea, but all in all.. there is not enough motivation for me to write again? yup.. that shud be it.. no need lah alasan tiada masa semua tu.. so i am —- LOST —– at what shud i start with again


The recent missing airplane MH370.. woww such a tragedy.. to the whole wide world. such a shock to all of us… i am just praying we can come to a conclusion to it real soon.. but also deep in my heart.. i was hoping we still searching.. they might be trap in a dark whole or something.. or they are just like in that series —- LOST —–


My turns turns upside down again.. at the time I was ready to blog again.. about babies and diapers and such.. i — LOST —- it again another missed miscariage. and had to go for D&C once again. This happened to me before, also at 10 weeks.. with the same manner.. found out the baby’s heart beat has stopped. Everything else had grew.. just the baby didnt. This time around… things are very very very different. I didnt jsut LOST the baby.. sut some part of me… are also —– LOST —– which i did not want to talk about for now. I am now sitting down as a different person.. different feeling … searching for a new beginning. I am totally not LOST. Knowing my self better..and what i want. May Allah is with me

Happy fathers day



A late post. Happy fathers day to my husband. He tried his best to give it all to his girls. But the best was: sparing his time with them; he teaches them iqra n solat, swimming and manmers- that is the best thing everrrrrrr


Zahraa buat audit kat saya hari ni

Eyes: oo your eyes is so big u can see everything. Good. Check
Mouth: you can eat food. Check
Nose: got nose. U can smell delicious things. Check
Hands: ok got you can pegang pegang masak.check
Ears: you can hear things. Check

You are good mom


I miss u

So far away. I miss my best friend. I just can hope and pray she is well and happy.



Wisdom tooth extraction

I came to know about my wisdom tooth issue some time longggggg ago. When i was 15. Thats was when i had an x ray before my braces was on. My dentist told me the position of my wisdom tooth would be an issue some day. At that time, they were just pushing all my lower front soldiers, making them squeezed in my small mouth. And at that time those braces helped.
But some years ago, those wisdom tooth has been a nightmare. And open door to my habit of taking pain killers..the second reason after my migraine. It was something i hated, something i had in me, something i am fighting off.

So why dont i get them out? Well obviously…duuuhhhhhh…of course i was scared! And of course i am with a baby bla bla bla, breastfeeding bla bla bla … And so goes my list of excuses. But the other reason was of course they are expensive. Damn expensive i would say. I had once brace myself to a dentist but (luckily) she said she is not doing it anymore, its a risky lil surgery yada yada (and yayyy for me at that fime)

But since last August, it had became worst. The whole row of my teeth were in pain. And came october, i could not bear it any longer. But it was soooo expensive, and was not cover by my medical. Till January came, one night i could not sleep, and cry and ….errr u can imagine i guess. And thats it..thats the last drill.

At last i visited We Care Dental Surgeon, Dr Law. And get it out. My mouth is small, and they was no space for the dentist to work on. And the wisdom tooth itself was already in bad shape. So what he did was to cut my teeth into 3 pieces, then cut off my gums, to take out the hooked roots, that has already got to my nerves. That was what made the pain keep coming again and again, with them being close to the nerves. The x ray and check up cost RM200+ and the surgery was RM670 -just sharing info with anyone who had the same issue. I fully recommend Dr Law, the whole process took 45 minutes instead of 2 hours, and Alhamdulillah i did not felt a thing! But pain and bla bla bla came after. Till today, i had a huge hole inside my mouth, the not yet covering gums, and its annoying, trapping food that i had.



Mine was that horizontal wisdom..not my pics, i mean i had that. I am expecting the same issue on my right side, as they are exactly the same. But for now i dont want to worry. My lower left jaw is in peace

Gone Girl : a review

Gone Girl, by Gilian Flynn. All i can say is – awesome!!!! And jumping in joy ( can u see me jumping and grinning) i loveeee this book!!!!
Its a book i can hardly put down- this should make you understood how much i love reading this. Its a book that keep you suspicious, and a suprise, at the beginning, mid and till the end!

Usually a book was written, as narrated by the main character. But Gone Girl was narrated by two, the husband and the wife. It begins with the wife who went missing on their 5th anniversary. She may have abducted, she may have run away, and her husband might kill her too!!!! In the beginning, the husband didnt seem to panic with the event, and curiosity came by. You could be team husband or team wife, reading this! And the end…errr i wont tell how it ends. I just wanna say its worth reading, so much

So its now for sale, as usual rm18 without postage. Postage will be rm6
Email me at zurahanimatgmaildotcom

Home made play dough

Its Maulidur Rasul holiday today (the birth of our Prophet Muhammad saw) and the three girls of us stayed home. I thought i want to bake some cakes, or finish those laundry.
But it seems to be a great day to ‘grow’ with my kids (will write bout this later) si i decided to make some play dough! The recipe is from here

And it turns out to be awesome. We rarely played play dough so my girls are really excited. Its nasuha’s first time playing this at home (i did not allow, but she already been playing at school, so what the heck right?)

I mixed them all in a vision. I warned you, dont follow me okay, instruction said pan, so pleaseee use pan. I had trouble with those glassware (serves me right)


Put it on a stove

Taraaaa its gonna get sticky like this


Divide them




Coloring process


And endless fun. You’ll be suprise of what lik kids would do with doughs. Oh yeah, this is safe, dont worry if your child accidently swallow it. They are just ingredients from you kitchen right.

Play doughs are simple, but they are beneficial for kids. From reading, i came to know that they help a lot in building motor skills, put a strength to the tiny muscles, creativity and imagination explored, extend investigation and possibilities. To sum up its for developing multi sensory of ur kids.
Its not only for girls, boys could benefit from them too. And there’s no age limit for it. Different age group would discover different angles to it. Add boxes, colors, stick, leaves, or cupcake container for your kids to explore an have fun

But the most important part it, the time you spend with your kids. Its precious



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