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lets start again

i’d like to write again.. itch to write again.. but.. does blog is still in trend? does anyone read what i write? have i ever care? 😛

but i dont really know where to start. where to pick up at the spot where i stop.. but.. something has to start somewhere right..

lets begin with some explanation.. well.. errr.. hmm i dont think i need to explain anything.. 😛 (okay.. opening up.. thats what my doc said)

err.. okay.. so i am single now.. a single mother, i’d say… i am better today, healthier, happier, alhamdulillah i felt blessed…. i know i am not the perfect person on earth.. but i’d like to thank all my dearly friends who has hang around.. not judging.. just supporting and trusting. and to those.. hypocrites.. haah .. nevermind.. lets talk about that some other day i guess…

i am now staying with kids… still in penang.. juggling things on my own, financially, physically… once a while they will see their dad… so once a while i will be single.. looking for new things to do.  catching up on things that i missed…. keeping up with my works… so on weekends…. i am either hiking, working, by the beach, reading.. or cleaning.. or simply will be on my construction sites. doing things that i love to do. sometimes i have frens to keep me busy.. sometimes i have buddies to keep me laughing… i dont really have many family members around to keep me in a good spirit… of course everyone has their own thing to be busy on.. but… once a while i get to see my sister.

usually friends who got divorced will go back to their parents and be closed to their parents again. but i am not. i dont really have anywhere to turn to. my frends becomes families.. families that were not bonded by blood.. by thru love and care.. to me.. those were called.. inconditional love. hmm kinda emotional huh…

okay.. not planning to write a novel here.. but just trying to let those who concern about me know – i am doing okay. and i want to be a happy girl again. help me to smile eveyrday okay.. love ya!!

every new seed will grow

every scar would heal

lets hope and pray with me


Recently we read about Gaza everywherr, we speak of it at anytime. Heartbreaking, it is. Some refuse to look at this cruelty. Some love to spread all the bloody pictures of the syahids.
Once, i had afrain myself to look at them. Once i cant bare looking at the crying moms. Once i just pray quietly, for their safety.
But this time, i look, i stare, and try to understand. And let the tears pour. Air mata adalah pelembut hati, especially when it was for Allah. It made me think, it made me feel, it touches not just my heart but every inch of me. They were in my sleep? Nightmare??? No, more as prayers, a reason to ask more from Allah..for them, and for us here, for the whole world.

I dont have to spread this awareness, no. Everyone knows this. And all are aware of our responsibilities. And all are doing them, now insyallah.

But what had me struck was- we, aming us, fights and argue. In my facebook recently, arguements were made, on ways to help Gaza! On boycotting! Even on spreading news!! Pleaaase dear frens!!! They are fighting for life! Yet we are arguing whether to eat macdonalds or not. How shallow we are!!!

Some are trying to help while the other objected. Some are sharing awarenss while some are booing on them. In a way, i am thinking, if they knew, i am sure they knew, are laughing at us. Laughing at our losing bonds, separated beliefs and different stand.

Which make me sad. If the same war happen in our country, nauzubillah, i am not sure how strong us muslims are. Could we all hold hands protecting our child??? We may not. We may be pointing at each other blaming.

Lets just hope that wont hppen. Lets just hope we, all muslims in malaysia have the same stand, satu jemaah, not only satu bangsa, but satu jemaah.

May Allah protect palestine and us all

innlillah hi wainna lillah hirajiun

KUALA LUMPUR 24 Ogos – Seorang pelajar Universiti Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia (UIAM) ditemui lemas dalam kolam renang di kampus universiti itu di sini pagi ini.

Mayat Mohd. Hafifi Hazwan Mohd. Adnan, 20, ditemui pada 3 pagi dan dihantar ke Hospital Kuala Lumpur di sini untuk bedah siasat.

Ketua Polis Daerah Gombak ACP Abdul Rahim Abdullah berkata, Mohd Hafifi, pelajar tahun pertama, dilaporkan mandi di kolam itu bersama-sama empat rakannya selepas bermain futsal.

“Dia dipercayai tidak pandai berenang,” katanya.


Sumber: Utusan Online